Allahuakbar...allahuakbar walillahilhamdi...
Alhamdulillah after seven days drowning into a lot of books, notes and maxims… I finished on sitting final exams of this semester. What a great feeling… Hope the prayer, afford and self depending on Allah could be taken as amal jariah as could bring me closer to Allah… Exams really remind me to the Day of Reckoning in Mahsyar, whereby all our doings be counted. If we are not prepared ourselves from now, we are actually underprepared in meeting Allah s.w.t. As I’m writing this, it reminds me to the conversation between me and my friend. “Maryam, awak dah merdeka la, dah habis paper…” To be honest, I’m very scared to face so many obstacles after exams. I do not mind of any prior to exams, not even along with exams. The challenge is greater after exams … Allahul musta’an...
I’m actually missing my husband a lot… Thinking what he is doing, will do and has done… But I know who is missing him much more than I do… Mak mertua saya pasti lagi rindu... :-) But, there is something that I like to share… Although I’m entitled to be depressed of being far from my beloved hubby, but alhamdulillah… it doesn’t make a mess of my study life…plus the busyness in doing da’wah does not leave any hole for me to be exposed with negative delusions and thoughts. Da’wah is a job of everybody, every Muslims subject to what is in our knowledge… The Messenger of Allah, may the peace and blessings of Allah be upon him, said: "Convey (the message) from me; even if only one verse." (Sahih Bukhari). Ever since, I always been in courage of been married, Alhamdulillah…
Back to the topic… In just a blink of eyes, without conscious we are getting older, near to death… ‘Exams’ is a part of challenges in our life as our worldly matter. Free from exam doesn’t mean free from Allah’s observation… Allah keeps watching over us, tests us and controls everything… Allah says in our holy kitab, "Do men imagine that they will be left (at ease) because they say, we believe, and will not be tested with affliction?" (Surah al-Ankabut, verse 2). Could you imagine, if we are dying while doing something that will make Allah angry with us… would you predict with your ending?? Keep on reasoning. One day, you’ll know the truth. Iman is not just enough to know without putting yourself in it.
Talking in usrah or halaqah and writing in blog are more theoretical in nature. We as Muslims must take the steps on how we’ll be the good servants of Allah. There are a few steps to purify our heart in order to get “ma’rifatullah”. First, Fear Allah on what we do. Try to protect ourselves from the Hellfire by following the orders of Allah s.w.t by doing what Allah has commanded and avoid what Allah has forbidden. Do not follow the negative desires. Second, be contemplated. Try to reminisce what have been done and realize it to minimize the wrongful conduct. Third, get hurry to the repentance. “Allah is forgiving and merciful...” (Surah an-Nisa’, verse 25). Fourth, thinking about death increases one's fear of Allah. Death deeply affects people, it deeply affects all the humans. Fifth, prayer. Through praying, one will get closer to his Rabb. Allah guides a person from all the ways that were wrong and gives hope.
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